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11 September 2010 @ 09:33 am
 
Title: It won't take long so please listen
Author: satsumatsu 
Beta: irawrrx33 
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun / Ninomiya Kazunari
Rating: G
Words: 951
A/N: The song is Kazuyoshi Saito's Utautai no Ballad, I recommend to watch this performance because... it's so intense! At least for me? This fic turned out raaaaather fluffy. Written for nicefinalbeam 's fiction quest the melody lingers on.


On those rainy nights...

"It's raining really hard," Nino ponders. Jun glances from the screen towards the window when his eyes finally settle on his friend.

"Yeah..."

They watch 'Strangers on a train' by Hitchcock in order to prepare for Nino's upcoming play. Bruno and Guy along with wine and chocolate. Jun would have never thought that Nino was the wine and chocolate type when he showed up on his steps with the said items and the DVD. Jun loves these movie nights and Nino knows this.

"The last train should have gone, too." Nino continues to muse.

Jun arches a brow at that, but turns towards the screen again where Bruno is laughing loudly at his mother’s interpretation of a portrait of his father.

"You can stay," he says casually. He barely spoke the words when Nino is snuggling into his side. Jun smiles.

~

... and winter mornings,

The next morning they sit on Jun's couch again like they never left it - with steaming coffee mugs in front of them and blankets around their shoulders. Due to the breakdown of the central heating system, they snuggle closer and listen to the radio guy announcing one of the fastest onsets of winter in the history of Japan. They can see the thick snow petals flowing outside the window from their spot on the sofa.

The rain turned into snow over the night, covering the streets with ice. The outcome is slippery, cold and white, white, white.

Despite the canceled schedule for that day and the problems this would cause, Jun couldn't help but think this is one of the best mornings as he scolds Nino for reaching out for his mug, causing could air to swish between their bodies. He yanks him back without remorse and Nino laughs.

Jun wants to maintain these moments. The rainy nights, the winter mornings.

~

stay with me.

~

Jun doesn't know what this thing between them was. It isn't pure friendship; it is certainly not a relationship. There are casual touches, glances and moments Jun can't read at all.

Jun knows how he feels, though. He wants Nino. He wants to kiss him, to touch him, to let his hands slide along the back of his spine, counting the bumps of it. He wants Nino to stay. He wants him to be a constant part of his life, even after Arashi may be too old to perform.

He's afraid of these feelings. So so afraid of his feelings for Nino because he can't deny them any longer even in times when their relationship does not make a step forward or back (or sense!). He is afraid of opinions, society, life, Arashi, Nino.

But what he is most afraid of is not saying it. That he has to live with the burden of never having said it. And one day Nino would marry a beautiful girl, maybe with Jun as his first man and he would stand at the altar, thinking 'What would have happened if I told him?'

But Jun was always bad with confessions. With real confessions. Never mind the TV confessions you can just come up with. It is not real; you do not have to fear the reaction from the other.

Three tiny words.

It wouldn't take long to say these words. The other would listen, sincerely. Jun is sure. But the impact. The impact of those words...

~

Jun dragged this matter until Christmas. They agreed on another Wine and Chocolate Evening along with one of those special TV programs on Christmas Eve. The lasagna, half eaten on the coffee table is a bonus.

The moderator announces Kazuyoshi Saito as the next performer and Nino snuggles deeper into the sofa cushions like a content cat. Jun feels blissfully happy beside him.

It's not hard to sing;
All you have to do is give your body over to your voice,
And clear your head.

It's a simple performance, Kazuyoshi Saito with his guitar; two spots, blue lightning. Jun sometimes wants to try something simple like this too.

It all plays back in my mind
When I close my eyes...
Those nostalgic memories, and the days I spent with you...


Suddenly, along the lines, Jun turns rigid. His mind which was on the performance until now suddenly grabs the content of the song. A shiver runs down his spine, his arm on the backrest feels heavy.

The truth is in the song;
And so are things
That you would usually be too embarrassed to say.

As I think of you once again today,
The singer sings.
There are words I was never able to say to you.
It won't take long so please listen...
"I love you."

He stares at the screen, eyes prickling from the intense performance and the lyrics. The lyrics that-... He can feel that how Nino shifts closer. His warm side pressing into Jun's and the warmth continues to spread all over Jun's body.

As I think of you once again today,
The singer sings.
How should I tell you this?...
On those rainy nights and winter mornings.
Stay with me.


And that is when Jun knows what to do.

Oh, think of those movies with happy endings

He lets his arm sink onto Nino's shoulders, maybe the very first deliberate touch - he wants a happy ending too.

As I sing now.
These are such wonderful words.
It won't take long so please listen...

He squeezes Nino's shoulder.

"I love you."

He can feel Nino's developing smile all over. His hand traces from Nino's shoulder to his neck, jaw, to the corner of his mouth where the smile lingers. And it remains. It is his.
 
 
 
tezuka_r on September 11th, 2010 08:30 am (UTC)
Love it :) So beautiful ^^
Marinekomylittlecthulhu on September 11th, 2010 09:34 am (UTC)
*sighs* So cute. It seems like I'm accepting this pairing more and more, now XD (Maybe it's time I challenge myself to write Matsumiya? Haha)
malu186malu186 on September 11th, 2010 09:42 am (UTC)
So warm, so cute.
I can sense the warm environment around them.
Thanks for writing :)
A L E X I E L Aalexiela on September 11th, 2010 09:46 am (UTC)
This is just wonderful. The song fits so perfectly! I love the imagery ♥
violet_saviolet_sa on September 11th, 2010 09:50 am (UTC)
it's so sweet and beautiful :x
I love it!
Thank you for writing this nice story <3
batrisya_85: nino and wan-chanbatrisya_85 on September 11th, 2010 10:58 am (UTC)
it's beautiful.. i love it! <3

thanks~
agnes_yunitaagnes_yunita on September 11th, 2010 11:36 am (UTC)
Finally got a right moment and a big smile
thank u
gempleegemplee on September 11th, 2010 03:59 pm (UTC)
this is so sweet. i love it. thank you so much!
shika: matsumiyashikalion on September 11th, 2010 06:24 pm (UTC)
d'awww that was cute :) and now i feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
loved how you incorporated the song into the fic.
thanks for sharing this!
r_1_ss_ar_1_ss_a on September 11th, 2010 07:55 pm (UTC)
awwwww. the fic and the song fit perfectly together. that was really great. <3

i love jun and nino's relationship!

i've been craving some matsumiya so thank you for this. :)
god damn these electric sex pantsnicefinalbeam on September 11th, 2010 10:28 pm (UTC)
dfhgkjdhgvkdfj.

This is so well suited to the song, which is a lovely choice btw, and the way things develop so naturally was wonderful. I particularly enjoyed that Nino was a wine and chocolate sort of guy, because I think he could be for Jun, and the way they just relax on the couch together. It's simple, but happy. ♥

Thank you! Adding this to the list. :D
yulifloryuliflor on September 13th, 2010 10:59 pm (UTC)
This was so wonderful!
So romantic!
I wish there was more tho ^_^
momokan69momokan69 on September 14th, 2010 01:15 am (UTC)
It's so beautiful and makes my heart warms,,
Love it! Thanks for sharing! (^ ^)
♪ vivivivizanessafan on September 14th, 2010 12:01 pm (UTC)
This is simply beautiful ♥ It's raining here right now but reading your fic makes me feel warmer... <3
fancyann1974fancyann1974 on September 16th, 2010 02:53 am (UTC)
aaahhh so touching and sweet
thank you for sharing
melonpankunmelonpankun on September 20th, 2010 04:55 am (UTC)
TT^TT so sweet :3 thanks alot for sharing this :D
elvenknight16elvenknight16 on August 17th, 2011 01:37 am (UTC)
Beautiful!
stsatsumatsu on August 17th, 2011 10:39 am (UTC)
... I loved that song too XD and HAD to write it~
ninonishi0406ninonishi0406 on May 11th, 2016 12:46 pm (UTC)
Love it...
It's so sweet.
Thanks for sharing.